Now playing in my laptop as I write this article: What Now by Rihanna - just the perfect song to introduce my topic.
How long was the longest time you have had a crush on anyone?
In my case...
The answer is 5 years.
I am looking at how having liked one person for about a quarter of my lifetime has affected me.
The five year timeline began after my elementary graduation. Funny I know, but for young people, the weird feeling of always wanting to see someone is a foreign yet exciting mix of hope, fear and everything in between.
My heart magnified everything good about him. He may also have been the basis of what I look for (well, in some ways) in a guy. I found many similarities between us. The greatest one...
We share the same birthday.
I know mathematics and probability will form a tag team to hit me in the head with what I considered special back then, but I was somehow consumed with the idea that the connection we had was unique.
A one in the universe kind of thing.
The realization that the 'phenomenon' wasn't really that special came very much later (wait for my next article).
We attended different high schools, and I really wanted to find out how he has been doing. I was really curious about how he is adjusting to the world of high school life, but I had no idea how to begin forming a friendship with him.
"I don't know where to go. I don't know what to feel. I don't how to cry. So what now?"