Home    Subscribe    Write for Us    FAQ    Contact    HubGarden    Login

Unsaid - I Love You

by Mina Keenan (follow)
Mina's Printables:) Attitude (2)      Desperation (1)      Crisis (1)      Now (1)      Energy (1)      Priority (1)      Outlook (1)      Humbling (1)     


Desperation,Crisis,Now,Energy,Priority,Outlook,Attitude,Humbling


Was at the doctors, on a respirator, and I couldn't talk. The ambulance is on the way.

"Don't you leave me Keenan" he said.

I am so intensely, desperately frightened and so profoundly sad. I'm fighting. I don't want to leave you.

People are running around doing stuff.

Tears streaming, I focused on his eyes. How handsome he is - when was the last time I told him that? Did he still know I fancied him?

My hand was gripping the arm of his shirt. I'm hanging on to you as long as I can. Do you know I love you sooo much? You've been so good to me - thank you, thank you, thank you, you kind, good man. Whatever has gone on between us before doesn't matter - not the slightest bit important.

People running around - they have to run around us - I'm not letting go, not as long as I'm conscious.

I don't know if I'll make it. I want to, but I don't know if my body will listen. So I'll try and tell you by my eyes, telepathy, osmosis - anything.

No smiles between us - just exhausting concentration.

The kids are all grown up, they will be ok. The grandies will be fine. You will be fine, you handsome brute. My family will sort out what needs to be done. You take it easy - the fright in your eyes is heartbreaking. I so want to soothe you.

If I can't make it - you are the last thing I want to see. Just like this - eyes locked. Looking at you, looking at me. Its the best I can do. It is enough. We have now.

I do so love you.

After

These are a hundred mile a minute thoughts before a stint in Intensive Care and ward time in hospital. Am lucky to have been able to verbalise all of that at a later date to my guy - though it took a while as the experience was so harrowing and humbling. It can still make me howl just thinking about it.

He said he knew - said he felt it. This from a mountain of a guy who can be old-school-chauvanistic and closed-minded as the rest of them.

My outlook shifted a gear or two. My kids say I am laid back, sometimes too soft - but I don't think so. I have my own ideas on what to waste my energy fighting about or fussing over and what to let go.

I am secure in what's right for me.

# Desperation
# Crisis
# Now
# Energy
# Priority
# Outlook
# Attitude
# Humbling
More Articles by Mina Keenan
Thoughts about love from the minds of Erich Fromm, Jeremy Taylor and Vincent Van Gogh
266 views
What chance does a girl like this have at finding true love? More than the rest of us one might ...
170 views
Truly Heart is a place for love, marriage, dating, romance, weddings
213 views
Click on any image to see it larger
223 views
Love stories are fascinating
69 views
Take a wee break and see what happens to girl who likes a guy, who likes another girl
93 views
Articles by Mina Keenan on Other Hubs
Download Have fun! #Adult Colouring Page #Printables #Girls #Draw...
74 views
Download Checkout some Image from: Book-Plates by William J
85 views
Download printable sheet
134 views
ID: 14732
Wow, Mina, what a pivotal and transformative experience you have been through. I am glad that you were able to get through and share this experience with us.
Beautiful and so important to say those words.
Selina
Trending Articles
Recently I have heard some disastrous dating stories from my single friends
24888 views
Relationships guru Dr Gary Chapman purports that there are five different ways that lovers can c...
14416 views
It may be weird to fathom that men can have a very close friendship with another man just like w...
by SJP
1261 views
You already might have seen and read hundreds of and I'm pretty sure that more than 80% of the ...
498 views
It's okay, to read on, this isn't a sad article about loss
243 views
It's so very important that we learn from the experiences of our yesterdays - but it is equally ...
1839 views
What qualities are you looking for in your ideal partner? Think it through
1127 views
Internet dating sites are increasingly popular as a way of finding that elusive 'someone'
81 views
There are advantages to being single and living alone
129 views
It may sound odd to compare a new relationship with buying a new jacket (or other clothing) but, bea...
145 views
Categories
 
Copyright 2012-2018 OatLabs ABN 18113479226. mobile version